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Wednesday, 15 January 2014

Optic Neuritis Episode-- I am scared. :'(


I am crying while writing this post. I have no idea why I am suffering the way I am.

In 2012, I had optic neuritis in my left eye and it cleared after 6/7 months and took a year off university. But I do not have 100% vision like I had before the onset.

Now I have it in my right eye for a few days now and it seem to get worse. I just want to cry and cry and cry.

I pray everyday and does everything.. But there is no escape for this pain. I just feel like giving up. But I can't.

I can't quit, not now.

I feel like I have no one.

The last time I had problems was a day after I had a fight with my dad.. This eye problem also started a day after I had a fight with him. I just want to go back in time and just be normal again.

I cannot tell anyone. I am alone, unloved, scared, depressed, and uncertain about my future.

I do not know what I can change. MS seem to change me. and I do not like it. In fact, I hate it.

1 comment:

  1. Hi, I'm online searching for information because my brother just got diagnosed with optical neuritis. I stumbled upon your blog and read this post. You seem to be very distressed and I hope you are reaching out to friends and family. If you'd prefer an anonymous person to talk to, talk to me!

    send me an email at if you need to!